Just in case you couldn’t guess from the title my exchange has been officially approved by ITESM. So in 85 days I will be leaving the place that has been my home for the last thirteen years and moving to Guadalajara to study!
Now I received the email yesterday and after initially crying from pure happiness I somehow convinced myself that I must have been mistaken because I was told we wouldn’t find out until mid June. I forwarded the email onto my exchange advisor and she told me today that they had indeed processed them early this year and that I was indeed ‘in’. I am so freaking excited, but also incredibly nervous. Its so weird that after wanting this for so long its actually definitely happening, I can’t imagine how I’ll feel on the day we leave (we’re going to NZ first).I’m already thinking about everything I’ll miss, my cat, my friends, my family. I will miss my boyfriend like crazy but I don’t even want to think about that right now.
As much as I will hate leaving this is such a great time for me to get the news. I very recently ended a friendship with a close friend who had seemingly become very bitter towards me over the last couple of years, I wont go into it but it just wasn’t a great situation and I always got the feeling she was unhappy when things went well for me. After receiving such amazing news I have a feeling she would have found a way to sour it somehow so I’m glad I was only able to share the news with people who care about me and want me to succeed.
It just feels like time to leave Brisbane, I think I would have died a little inside if I had been rejected and had to stay here until January. Sure I’ve meet a new lot of amazing people recently, and I do have amazing friends here but I feel like there’s nothing left for me here at the moment (apart from friends/family and Steven) spiritually, emotionally and in a lot other areas.There’s no more room for me to grow as a person here and I cannot wait until the 85 days are up.
Just like friendships, I think that cities and people can grow apart and I think I’ve had enough of Brisbane for now. I know I will probably have to return after our trip (which is happening straight after my exchange – I’m not coming home first) to finish my double degree, but who knows how I’ll feel once I’m out of this place. I know I could finish it online instead, although that would mean losing the prestige of going to a tier one university – but who knows if that will still be a priority to me in the future.
I think in the last year or so my views have been challenged. I’ve always been ambitious – wanting to go to the best university and then get into the best graduate program, I wanted to be an investment banker, work my arse off and have the nicest house, car, everything. But slowly I started to value other things, I changed my major from finance to accounting so I would have a job where less hours were worked and there was a greater opportunity to have my own business in the future. I added an Arts degree to my studies even though I always had considered it to the a gateway to working at McDonalds – losing a shameful mentality that is prevalent in non- arts students at elite universities). And finally I began to make travel a priority, to value time spent doing the things I wanted to do instead of the work focused mentality I had instilled in me from a young age.
So who knows what the future will hold.. but I know mine begins with a trip of a lifetime to Mexico.